girlness
in terms of gender identity, why do i feel so disconnected from everything i want to be girl yet i can't get all of my brain to agree that it should be girl like sometimes i just want to be my “old self” but also like can i Not also also how am i going to deal with my identity once i leave my house. what are people going to see me as? how will i handle name/pronoun change? last time i tried it, it went disasterously this is hard and stupid and i would just like to look like a girl so i can get it over with
sigh